My appoitment with my OBGYN was yesterday. And i came away with it feeling happy and excited but most importantly hopeful. My appoitment was at 1:30. I left work at noon and went home and had some lunch and watched some Baby Story on TLC. I headed over to the Women's Hospital and was lucky to find a handicap spot at the front, i went early in case i'd have to park miles away. I took that as a positive sign. haha! I get all checked in and waited about 10 minutes before being called back. I was weighed (113 lbs, yikes!!!) and then gave a lovely urine sample since my last cycle was June 22nd and they just wanted to do a pregnancy test "just in case." I knew it would be negative, but that little voice in my head spoke up and was saying "what if!!" So after getting my blood pressure and my pulse i was left to wait alone. Chris would have come, he's been to all of my doctors appointments, baby related and not, but he just wasnt able to arrange his schedule at work so he could. So i sat alone for what felt like hours even though i twas probably about 10 minutes. But those thoughts in my head were getting my hopes up! Even though i knew it was going to be negative. I swear i heard someone outside the door softely saying "Pregnant?" and then another person say "yeah." And of course i thought it was directed at me and my pee sample, but of course it wasnt.
My doctor comes in and we discuss whats going on, refresh her on when the miscarriage was (uhh, why didnt she look in my chart? In fact, she didnt even have my chart with her, but whatever) and what we've done since then to induce a period and how that didnt work. Without hesitation she says she is going to have me try prometrium again to induce my period (last time i only spotted, no flow at all) and then start on clomid on CD 5-9. And then start using OPKs after that until i get a positive. And if i dont, she'll up the dose of clomid. The awesome thing about paying for clomid is, they are on the "cheap" list at Wal-Mart. If you tell them you dont have insurance (which i actually DO, but...) instead of paying $30, i only paid $9!!! Unfortunately the Prometrium was $35.
I.WAS.SHOCKED.
I fully expected to hem-haw around and have to beg to be put on clomid. Both of my sisters used clomid (more on that in a minute), so i'm not that surprised i would need it too, but i thought it took a while for the doctor to be like, ok lets try this now. My guess is though, since i'm NOT having a cycle its more of a sign i need help sooner? Whatever, i dont even care, i'm just glad! I feel like we're finally moving one step closer to becoming parents!
So, my sisters and clomid. My older sister Michelle, has been diagnosed with PCOS. She was given clomid to help her in her TTC journey with baby #2. When i asked her about her experience with clomid (before i was prescribed or visited my/our OBGYN) she told me she didnt like the side effect and stopped taking it. So she didnt conceive using clomid. However, after stopping it she did. She's had two beautiful baby boy's. Jaxton is now 4 and Jett is 2. My younger sister Stephanie, also had to use clomid. She was never diagnosed with PCOS, but she's got all of the same symptons our older sister has so i wouldnt be surprised if she does too. I'm not sure how many cycles she had to use clomid before she conceived but she is now the mother of my adorable 1 year old niece Emma. So who knows how my body and i will react to clomid. I'm hoping and crossing all fingers and toes and legs and arms that i will only need one round to do the trick for us.
Friday, August 12, 2011
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
CD 49
Today is cycle day 49.
Yeah, i'm less then thrilled.
Still negative OPKs and still negative pregnancy tests. Sigh.
My appointment with my family doctor didnt really go as i expected. She was more focused on following up to my appoitment from 6 weeks ago, which was also my first appointment with her then anything new that may have developed in the mean time. I also felt rushed this visit, which is annoying. I had a pretty terrible headache that day so i brought that up. And instead of wanting to find our what could be causing the headaches (hormonal imbalance perhaps!?) which i get at least twice a week she prescribed me "an old antidepressant that has shown to prevent headaches all together." Sounds great, but i'd rather know why they are happening instead of just covering them up. I also dont really like the idea of being on an antidepressant (hello! We're ttcing!!!). I thought i'd give it a shot and at least see how i handled it. She told me it makes most people tired so she has them take it at night before bed. Well i took it around 8pm on Friday. I can pretty much not tell you much about Saturday because i slept the entire day. I was too tired to do much of anything. I woke up around 2 or so and had some lunch and went right back to bed. Chris got home from work at 4:30 and i stayed in bed for another 2-3 hours. I finally got out of bed for dinner, but i just felt out of it and anxious about what i should be doing even though i didnt have anything to do. Chris was worried i slept so much. And we decided i was not taking anymore. I cant function like that! Especially at work! I'd rather have a headache then feel like that. I still feel like i feel out of it 4 days later, i'm still anxious and feel like i'm on the verg of a panic attack, and like i cant breath or catch my breath. Its not fun! Luckily she also wrote me a script for Imitrex for migranes, which i get every so often.
When i asked if she could refer me to a high risk pregnancy doctor she asked if i had talked with my OBGYN and basically brushed it off. Yes i've talked with my OBGYN! I had told my family doctor she wont refer me until AFTER i'm pregnant. We want to talk with a high risk OB BEFORE we get pregnant. She said she could refer me to a geneticist but that my OBGYN and the high risk OB would work together. So i took that as i should talk to my OBGYN. Sigh.
Our 2 year wedding anniversary is August 22, so we're both taking the entire week off to celebrate. We're tight on extra money so we arent going anywhere this time. So i tried to make my appt with my OBGYN during that week so i wouldnt have to worry about taking of more time from work. Well of course, she doesnt have any appts that week but they could get me in on Aug. 11th (which will be CD 51). Fine, i'll take it. So i'll be off again for a half day on Thursday. I just wish doctors appointments were more productive! I know when i go she'll want to do blood work and then want me to come back in a week or something. I want results and i want them now! And i dont want to be put on Birth Control pills to regulate my cycle! Something else is wrong!!
I am just so damn frustrated!
Yeah, i'm less then thrilled.
Still negative OPKs and still negative pregnancy tests. Sigh.
My appointment with my family doctor didnt really go as i expected. She was more focused on following up to my appoitment from 6 weeks ago, which was also my first appointment with her then anything new that may have developed in the mean time. I also felt rushed this visit, which is annoying. I had a pretty terrible headache that day so i brought that up. And instead of wanting to find our what could be causing the headaches (hormonal imbalance perhaps!?) which i get at least twice a week she prescribed me "an old antidepressant that has shown to prevent headaches all together." Sounds great, but i'd rather know why they are happening instead of just covering them up. I also dont really like the idea of being on an antidepressant (hello! We're ttcing!!!). I thought i'd give it a shot and at least see how i handled it. She told me it makes most people tired so she has them take it at night before bed. Well i took it around 8pm on Friday. I can pretty much not tell you much about Saturday because i slept the entire day. I was too tired to do much of anything. I woke up around 2 or so and had some lunch and went right back to bed. Chris got home from work at 4:30 and i stayed in bed for another 2-3 hours. I finally got out of bed for dinner, but i just felt out of it and anxious about what i should be doing even though i didnt have anything to do. Chris was worried i slept so much. And we decided i was not taking anymore. I cant function like that! Especially at work! I'd rather have a headache then feel like that. I still feel like i feel out of it 4 days later, i'm still anxious and feel like i'm on the verg of a panic attack, and like i cant breath or catch my breath. Its not fun! Luckily she also wrote me a script for Imitrex for migranes, which i get every so often.
When i asked if she could refer me to a high risk pregnancy doctor she asked if i had talked with my OBGYN and basically brushed it off. Yes i've talked with my OBGYN! I had told my family doctor she wont refer me until AFTER i'm pregnant. We want to talk with a high risk OB BEFORE we get pregnant. She said she could refer me to a geneticist but that my OBGYN and the high risk OB would work together. So i took that as i should talk to my OBGYN. Sigh.
Our 2 year wedding anniversary is August 22, so we're both taking the entire week off to celebrate. We're tight on extra money so we arent going anywhere this time. So i tried to make my appt with my OBGYN during that week so i wouldnt have to worry about taking of more time from work. Well of course, she doesnt have any appts that week but they could get me in on Aug. 11th (which will be CD 51). Fine, i'll take it. So i'll be off again for a half day on Thursday. I just wish doctors appointments were more productive! I know when i go she'll want to do blood work and then want me to come back in a week or something. I want results and i want them now! And i dont want to be put on Birth Control pills to regulate my cycle! Something else is wrong!!
I am just so damn frustrated!
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