CD 49

Today is cycle day 49.
Yeah, i'm less then thrilled.
Still negative OPKs and still negative pregnancy tests. Sigh.

My appointment with my family doctor didnt really go as i expected. She was more focused on following up to my appoitment from 6 weeks ago, which was also my first appointment with her then anything new that may have developed in the mean time. I also felt rushed this visit, which is annoying. I had a pretty terrible headache that day so i brought that up. And instead of wanting to find our what could be causing the headaches (hormonal imbalance perhaps!?) which i get at least twice a week she prescribed me "an old antidepressant that has shown to prevent headaches all together." Sounds great, but i'd rather know why they are happening instead of just covering them up. I also dont really like the idea of being on an antidepressant (hello! We're ttcing!!!). I thought i'd give it a shot and at least see how i handled it. She told me it makes most people tired so she has them take it at night before bed. Well i took it around 8pm on Friday. I can pretty much not tell you much about Saturday because i slept the entire day. I was too tired to do much of anything. I woke up around 2 or so and had some lunch and went right back to bed. Chris got home from work at 4:30 and i stayed in bed for another 2-3 hours. I finally got out of bed for dinner, but i just felt out of it and anxious about what i should be doing even though i didnt have anything to do. Chris was worried i slept so much. And we decided i was not taking anymore. I cant function like that! Especially at work! I'd rather have a headache then feel like that. I still feel like i feel out of it 4 days later, i'm still anxious and feel like i'm on the verg of a panic attack, and like i cant breath or catch my breath. Its not fun! Luckily she also wrote me a script for Imitrex for migranes, which i get every so often.

When i asked if she could refer me to a high risk pregnancy doctor she asked if i had talked with my OBGYN and basically brushed it off. Yes i've talked with my OBGYN! I had told my family doctor she wont refer me until AFTER i'm pregnant. We want to talk with a high risk OB BEFORE we get pregnant. She said she could refer me to a geneticist but that my OBGYN and the high risk OB would work together. So i took that as i should talk to my OBGYN. Sigh.

Our 2 year wedding anniversary is August 22, so we're both taking the entire week off to celebrate. We're tight on extra money so we arent going anywhere this time. So i tried to make my appt with my OBGYN during that week so i wouldnt have to worry about taking of more time from work. Well of course, she doesnt have any appts that week but they could get me in on Aug. 11th (which will be CD 51). Fine, i'll take it. So i'll be off again for a half day on Thursday. I just wish doctors appointments were more productive! I know when i go she'll want to do blood work and then want me to come back in a week or something. I want results and i want them now! And i dont want to be put on Birth Control pills to regulate my cycle! Something else is wrong!!

I am just so damn frustrated!