We are back to the beginning. That means today is cycle day 2. Thats right, AF has arrived. In all honesty, i'm excited about it. I'm super happy i was able to start a new cycle on my own. I havent done that since the miscarriage in December. As happy as i am for this i am equally sad. Not only does this mean i am not pregnant this month, but these cramps are killing me. I didnt normally have terrible cramps, i had cramps, yeah, but nothing like these. I feel weird about it too because these cramps remind me of my miscarriage. Not quite as painful and "contraction like" but still pretty painful. I had a terrible headache for 2 days. I even left work early yesterday to deal with it. And i've been having cramps for the last three days. I have also been having hot flashes pretty frequently. I knew what was coming, as much as i wanted to deny it and tell myself they were actually pregnancy cramps and symptoms.
I'm trying to stay positive about it though and just telling myself that my body is preparing for next month and to house a future baby. All of this is worth it. Here's to next month!
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